Dear Dad, Daddy. I miss you. Today is the day we who are still stuck here in this mortal coil will remember the day you were born. You would have been 56 today. Let me double check that on FB. Yup. I think I’m right. Reading the posts on your FB page shows so much about who you were, although I’m not sure if some of the commenters realize that you’ve gone home. Sometimes I...
I had to apologize today… for being young, and naive, and head strong; for not seeing the signs, even when people tried to tell me; for letting love…or was it pride…blind my eyes. I had to say I’m sorry… for getting angry over what I knew was true, but didn’t want to be true, and now is so true that my windows are at risk of things flying through them. And...
I will be back;
And we will be glad, you and I,
because that means that we have survived.
In the mean time, we pray, you and I,
and hold onto His promises.
I promise.
Blessings!
Hannah
When an infertile woman suddenly has a baby… She realizes just how right she was that something was missing. She realizes how much she loves her husband and how amazing he is. She realizes how holding a baby (especially in a moby wrap) makes people react to you differently. (More on that soon.) She prays for God’s healing of her body more than ever. She glows. (or so Hubby tells me.)...
After multiple phone calls from multiple sources, the consensus seems to be that Baby E will be coming home TOMORROW! The hospital wants me to do an overnight to make sure I understand how to care for her… Really? She’s a baby! Yeah, she has some special needs, but we’re not talking a g-tube or ventilator or anything, she’s just ultra sensitive to noise and light. Anywho...
2 Corinthians 2:5-11 “5 If anyone has caused grief, he has not so much grieved me as he has grieved all of you to some extent—not to put it too severely. 6 The punishment inflicted on him by the majority is sufficient. 7 Now instead, you ought to forgive and comfort him, so that he will not be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow. 8 I urge you, therefore, to reaffirm your love for him. 9 Another...
Lord, tonight I pray for the strongest women you have made. The ones that are struggling with things only women understand…and you of coarse. Lord, I pray for my friend whose heart is hurting. The baby girl that was promised to her will not be coming home with her, unless you intervene. She feels cheated and betrayed, and yet she knows that the birth mother is making this choice out of love...
I went to visit Baby E again today. She was sleeping when I arrived, so I scooped her up and rocked her, singing and singing. She never stirred besides a few grunts and groans. I love that little face. She seems very peaceful. The nurse said she had a good day and that she is eating really well. She spits up a little, but no reflux, so that’s good. I only stayed about an hour, because she...
So…any mamas who have dealt with drug addicted babies, I NEED YOU! We will be starting visits with Baby E at the hospital (possibly tomorrow) so that the nurses can help us transition and understand what she needs. She is really REALLY struggling with withdrawals. She is 5 weeks old already, so this has already been a long journey for her. According to our worker, seasoned nurses have cried...
My heart hurts for him today. He’s trying so hard… to give up, To be worth giving up on, To give us no choice but to give up. He’s trying so hard To make sure he gets absolutely nothing good nothing enjoyable. He is sure Absolutely SURE that in my heart I hate him that in my heart I want to squish him like a bug. My heart cries for his healing today, believing in our healer to...
Wife, mother, chauffeur, referee, teacher, chef, caretaker, etc...All unto Christ.
