You don’t make sense to me. You say all the right things when they are easy to say, and lose it when it really counts. You can go and go and go, never missing a beat and then suddenly explode. I never see it coming. You don’t make sense to me. In the moment you can’t stop yourself. When you speak in love one moment, you touch in anger the next. You are a total contradiction, and...
Really listen… I’d tell you how hard it is to be 20-something and feel like time is slipping away for you to really live you most intimate dream. I’d tell you how a love story can be real, and hard, and amazing, and beautiful, even when you get married at 17. I’d tell you how sometimes it’s easier to build relationships with animals rather than people. If you were...
Yesterday he gave up. Today he tried. Really REALLY hard. Yesterday I gave up. Today I had hope. Yesterday they disrespected and defied. Today they listened and followed instructions. Yesterday I cried and cried and cried. Today I laughed….not a whole lot, but I did. Yesterday I mourned over my empty womb. Today I rejoice with two sisters in Christ who have brought two beautiful daughters...
Right now I am not liking being Mom. Right now I am not liking my sons Right now I want to eat a big bowl of ice cream, but am not, because I am an emotional un-eater. Right now I am so angry at so many things and I have no idea who I can vent to that will understand. No. Not even you. Right now I am so angry that my stupid womb doesn’t work the way it’s supposed to because then maybe...
As of 1:30 PM this afternoon, June 28th 2010, Gabe is officially stubborn! YAY!!! He was nervous. He ate an entire bowl (like, glad container bowl) of taco casserole, plus a bowl of green grapes, at 11:30. He eats when he’s nervous, and he hates that I know that he eats when he’s nervous. Jeremiah was nervous. He was bummed because we still don’t have a date for his adoption day...
Who didn’t know if he wanted to be one, Who didn’t know if he could be one, Who told God that he’d accept it if it came, but chose to open his heart in an unexpected way; To the dad who is so young, but no one knows it, whose wisdom and strength are beyond his years, who fights for his family, even the ones he didn’t know he wanted, and who melts with our sons in his arms;...
God reigns over the nations; God is seated on his holy throne.* Even when my father-in-law’s house burns down. God reigns over the nations; God is seated on his holy throne. Even when my father-in-law loses his job, and his business, after his house burns down. God reigns over the nations; God is seated on his holy throne. Even when my step-daddy has a heart attack while on the road. God...
With commentary 🙂 My Mom My mom is the greatest mom in the world. She is happy when I am good. She likes to listen to me when I play. She cares for me. She always remembers to tell me to take a shower. (I definitely giggled when I read that.) My mom is the greatest mom in the world. She keeps me safe from danger. She cries when I am hurt. She worries that I will run away. She feels sad when I am...
My precious Jeremiah, Today was your 11th birthday. What a ride your 11 years have brought you on. 8 different families, 3 different group homes, friends made, friends lost. What a ride. You are so brave, my Jeremiah. You fight to the end, which is one of your biggest strengths, and one of your biggest barriers to happiness. My prayer for you, my sweet, sweet boy, is that your next 11 years will...
Dear Gabe, Happy 17. You are officially old. 🙂 Today was tough. It wasn’t as smooth as we would have liked. It wasn’t as polished as last year’s events. You felt. You needed. We tried our best. We’ll keep trying. You were trying hard today. I could see it, and I want you to know. I. Saw. You. I saw you remember to take the trash out this morning without being asked. I saw...
Wife, mother, chauffeur, referee, teacher, chef, caretaker, etc...All unto Christ.
