Leaving Grace where Grace wants to be left

The meeting was very quick yesterday. It went something like this…

Caseworker: So Grace has decided she no longer wants to be adopted by you, Hannah and Kaleb. Do you think we should try to force her into to it?

Me: No, Kaleb I have done a lot of talking and praying and we are going to step back. Grace is not ready, and we need to move on and be available for a child who wants a home and a family.

Caseworker: Okay then.

Grace comes off the bus and sits down at the table. Looks at everyone EXCEPT Kaleb and myself.

Caseworker: Grace, we are here to talk about the plan for you. The plan is still adoption, but you’ve decided not to be adopted by Kaleb and Hannah, but want to stay friends, right?

Grace: Right.

Lots of nervous joking by all adults involved, and Grace making jokes with everyone, except Kaleb and myself.

Me: Grace, how do you want to stay friends?

Grace: Phone calls on Mondays and Thursdays. (Which is what we’ve been doing up to this point)

Me: Okay, remember you can change that if you want to.

Hugs, goodbyes…yada yada…

Off we go. Childless.

This is what she wants, so we’ve left it where it be. Kaleb and I are both willing to take in other kiddos now. I have inquired about a sibling group of 3. A seven year old girl, a 3 year old boy, and a 1 year old girl. I know that God has His perfect family for us in store, I just wish I knew where they were hiding.

Pray for my heart. It’s mourning, and confused.

Pray for Kaleb’s sanity, as it will be tested with my sudden emotional fluctuations.